Doesn't Seem So Bad So Far

Yesterday... was a tough day. And I must have known how bad it was going to get when I saw the teddy bear in the convenience store at work. I saw it on break and just picked him up and had to hold him - I knew I had gift certificates in my desk, so I went looking for them - found a $5 certificate and a $6 certificate - just enough. When I went back to buy him and gave the woman behind the counter the gift certificates, she got the calculator out - it was hard to keep from laughing out loud. I did have a good meeting with my new supervisor - I am blessed to work for her and it looks like there may be some exciting projects coming up next year. I know - doesn't seem so bad so far - and at that point it wasn't.
Then I left to pick up my mom for a doctor's appointment. When I got to her place, she wasn't there - so I went down to the lobby to look for her since I know she likes to go down and chat with the ladies. As I was walking down the hall - there she was and as I walked into the room, the other ladies greeted me - but I got the sense that my mom didn't recognize me - and it wasn't until I walked up to her, touched her on the shoulder and asked her if she was ready to go that she even responded at all. I tried to put it out of my mind for the moment - I had to get her to the doctor. The appointment went fine - it wasn't until after I got home and had the chance to just stop that I just lost my mind. And as much as I just wanted to lay on the bed and never leave - I gathered myself up and headed out to Bible Study (I even ended up going to the gym after Bible study). And did ok until I was in the parking lot afterwards with my peeps and just had to tell them. Thank you - each and every one of you - for the love and support and the prayer out there in the parking lot. And B, thanks for being there for me after my workout (and thanks for checking on me this morning). I am blessed to have such a wonderful support group of friends - I couldn't do it without you (and I know that I will never have to do it alone).
So on to today... today has been a tough day as well - have just been struggling - I just can't get it out of my mind. I was thinking earlier that at least I haven't had to teach this week - but sometimes that is better - takes my mind off things. And luckily I have the support of some wonderful friends at work - and a new boss who went through this with her mom also. Anyway... instead of eating my way through my kitchen (I have a tendency to eat when I'm stressed) - I'm going to go to bed. God Bless all my friends!